realization 101

"minsan pla, kelangan rin ng lakas para sabihing mahina ka..."

this quote really captured my heart. i dont know why, just it did. when i read this line, all the memories during in the past came in through my mind. yeah, sometimes m tired of being strong and sometimes it came to a point that i wanna give up on something. then i realized that nobody in this world has the power to be intact until you face the trials of your life that you cannot solve unless you admit you're weak to face the reality. sometimes i have this attitude, i feel that i can surpass all of my problems but then when something happens that i didnt expect, thats the time i break down and think that i am weak, i am a failure, i am nothing. Self pity i guess is the right word. but in contratiction to this, sometimes being weak is not that bad because you learn from your mistakes and get up and face again your problem and start again a life that you made. nobody is perfect, thats for sure. so dont be afraid, were not alone in this world who's afraid to fail. i guess we all do.

all my friends knows me that i am a straight forward girl. and sometimes they call me OC because i want everything is polish and accordingly to what i planned. in short i planned all things. but i guess this attitude sometimes put me to frustration, so as time pass by i lessen being such. now, i became more considerate to others feeling. and i learned sometimes things that i didnt plan happened unnoticed. and it was such a great feeling.

hayz...

sometimes we tend to do things thats out of our league.

this next paragraph is not connected to the fist sentence so bare with me.. after a long decision making... i decided to go to my frnds party. i really feel not going but then something dragging me that i must go. so in short i went to the party. it was really a daredevil going there alone.. first im not familiar with the place and secondly it was raining. i arrived there in good conditon naman.. as time pass by we were happy partying.. drinking.. eating.. stuff like that.. but then something happened.. its not to me naman but to my friend. so i called her bestfriend good thing he was here.. and he picked us up. during that moment, i longed for my bestfriend if only he was there.. it was a big thing to me na.. but then again m not sure if i still do have a bestfriend or not. you can tell me that m so emotional but, guys,i f you're in my situation you'll gonna long for someone you can lean on during that time.. i dont know if this was just an effect of drinking but hey i know myself, m not yet drunk,m still okay.. compare to all the people in that party i was the one whos really still okay.

m singing in the rain!

hay.. its raining here and we cant go anywhere just stay here inside the dorm and do nothing. we went to greenbelt to attend mass and then eat dinner. i ate fish and fries but then again i didnt finish my food! and that was something new.. hehehehe

i wanna do something but i cant coz i dont know what to do! im thinking if m gonna go to rb and grace's party coz its raining and i dont know if my dad gonna pick me up tomorrow.. so my decision is depending on the weather tomorrow..

its 1.02am and still i am not yet sleepy.. darn! i want to sleep coz its cozy and i love the weather but then again this friigin insomia is killing moi!

holy crap!?

my god! why do some people think they were sooo smart?! wanna know why i end up starting my entry like this? lemme share it...

when i was scanning some of the blogs *i dont wanna mention what site* i was intrigue to this one site and because im bored, i opened her site... damn! she thinks that she is smart! hahahaha.. and as i scan her entries, i really felt that this girl really, fully trust her instinct *which is nice nman* but then again too much of it is not good.. for me dont brag it so much.. let other people say it to you or let them tell you. i know shes pretty but pretty and conceited? geez! give me a break!? i dont think so!? if you think your smart enough... let me tell you this.. believing in yourself is not bad but too much of it, it would pull you down. sometimes we tend to impress everybody but you cant really pleased everyone.. so one piece of advice... dont live in a world which you created for it will gonna put you to somewhere you wouldnt want.


maybe you'll gonna ask me what the heck im talking about... hahahaha.. maybe im just too bored and too happy critisizing someone's life... * hahahaha! i know im mean*


peace y'all!

racism...

<> tommy hilfiger sux!


I'm sure many of you watched the recent taping of
the Oprah Winfrey show
where her guest was Tommy Hilfiger. On D
show,
she asked him if the
statements about race he was accused of saying
were true.

Statements like"..."If I'd known African-Americans,
Hispanics, Jewish and
Asians would buy my clothes, I would not have
made them so nice. I wish
these people would *NOT* buy my clothes, as
they are made for upper class
white people."

His answer to Oprah was a simple "YES". Where
after she immediately asked
him to leave her show.

My suggestion? Don't buy your next shirt or
perfume from Tommy Hilfiger.
Let's give him what he asked for.
Let's not buy his clothes, let's put him in a
financial state where he
himself will not be able to afford the ridiculous
prices he puts on his
clothes.

BOYCOTT. PLEASE SEND THIS MESSAGE TO
ANYONE YOU KNOW. FIGHT AGAINST RACISM.

The following scene took place on a BA flight
between Johannesburg and
London. A white woman, about 50 years old, was
seated next to a black man.
Obviously disturbed by this, she called the air
Hostess.

"Madam, what is the matter," the hostess
asked. "You obviously do not
see it then?" she responded. "You placed me next
to a black man. I do not
agree to sit next to someone from such a
repugnant group. Give me an
alternative seat."

"Be calm please," the hostess replied. "Almost all
the places on this
flight are taken. I will go to see if another place is
available."

The Hostess went away and then came back a
few
minutes later.

"Madam, just as I thought, there are no other
available seats in the
economy class. I spoke to the captain and he
informed me that there is
also no seat in the business class. All the same,
we still have one place
in the first class."

Before the woman could say anything, the
hostess
continued:

"It is not usual for our company to permit someone
from the economy
class to sit in the first class. However, given the
circumstances, the
captain feels that it would be scandalous to make
someone sit next to
someone so disgusting."

She turned to the black guy, and said, "Therefore,
Sir, if you would
like to, please collect your hand luggage, a seat
awaits you in first
class."

At that moment, the other passengers who were
shocked by what they had just
witnessed stood up and applauded. This is a true
story.

If you are against racism, please send this
message to all your friends.

Please do not delete it without sending it to at
least one person.



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hayz.. kinda feel nothin today.. irritated, i dont know why. maybe because of these never ending thesis.. sux! i really dont want this freakin feeling.. feeling down.. helpless.. if only i can fast forward the time im gonna do it.. so that all these suffering will be vanished! i need a total rest.. physical,,mentally,,emotionally,, damn! can somebody help me pls?

stressful days

PAGOD NA KO

pano kya magiging masaya buhay ko?

lagi nalang ako nwawala sa sarili ko

pigilin ko man, wla na ko magawa kundi magisip na lng kung ano mangyayari sa kasalukuyan

hindi ko maintindihan sarili ko.. ito ba ay epekto ng pagaka stress ko?

wla na ko lakas ng loob

madami ng nangyari di ko na kayang makipagtalo pa

kung ikaw nasa katayuan ko? ano kya iisipin mo..

mababaliw ka din bang katulad ko

o tanggapin sa sarili mo na di mo na kya ang ganito

ang sakit mang isipin pero sumusuko na ko

kung kabiguan man to.. tatanggapin ko ng bukal sa kalooban ko

ano ba naman yung aminin mo sa sarili mo na di mo na kya

oo kawalan mo sya pero napatunayan mo naman sa sarili mo na kya mo ang ganito

lahat nalang ng problema nasalo ko

kelan matatapos ang kabaliwan na ito

kung meron lamang makakatulong saken matagal ko na syang pinasalamatan

dahil kahit paano nararamdaman nya kung ano ngayon ang kalagayan ko

kung pwede lang sana na takasan ko lahat ng ito

ginwa ko na.. matagal ng patahon..

siguro nagtataka kyo bakit ngayon ganito ako..

isa lang ang sagot ko jan..,

pagod na pagod na ako

salamat sa lahat..,

salamat...

best message

bEst: namIz tLga kta.. hEhE.. tC kAw lgi hA! mg araL kn mabuti.. sLap kta jAn ehh! pEacE bEst! <--- my best msg.. well kinda awaken by the reality that i need to go on and reach my potentials.. i only need encouragement and motivation.. now im doing na what im supposed to finish. tnx to my best at least he gave me motivation to pursue my studies. though its up to me tlga if i really wanna succeed.

tnx to ate pie she pushed me to do my things coz where in the same situation right now.. i really felt empty last nyt maybe because i pity myself for what's happening to me.

hayz.. pray for me guys. i need prayers so that i can stand from this disaster i put to in my life..

daddy's omen

DO NOT THINK TOO MUCH. DO NOT PUT TOO MUCH PRESSURE ON YOURSELF. WHAT YOU GIVE IS WHAT YOU HAVE OK? this was my dad's advice to me.. im really glad i have a dad like him. even though hes far away from me, he still cares and believes in me,beleives n my potentials. when im really down he actually comforts me and gives me advices that no one can ever give me. i really cried when he told me that stuff because i really do need some1 to be with me rigth now. to cheer me up a bit. and there.. my father was there.
maybe you'll gonna ask me if im a daddy's girl well.. yes. i am.
even though sometimes we fight, but then again we cannot stand it for a long time. i cried when i we do have this misunderstanding and i cant take it. i can see myself as CARMEN in the movie THE SISTERHOOD OF THE TRAVELLING PANTS..

bete noire

my chairperson talked to me awyl ago. and i really freaked out when i received my blockrep's txt that i have to see sir lee.. nyhow, he told me that i need to go to my classes na because if i dont i might fail my thesis and it really scares me. and he told me hes there to guide me but if i do it again what im doing right now *not attending my classes* he cannot help me na to my problem. so i guess this is my wake up call to be serious with what im doing becasue there's a possibility that i might failed and take it again next yr.

hayz.. im really scared of what i've done. i ruined my life, i ruined my studies and i ruined everything that i must have been improved!

testing

testing

bout whatever

sheesh! m kinda lost in here! hahahaha... well, m gonna work it out...

nothing in particular

uhm... well currently m lost w/ this blog... heehee.. i used to put my taughts n xanga so bare with me if my page sux just for now... dont worry m gonna update it as soon as a have time... m bouncing out...
tahtah