realization 101

"minsan pla, kelangan rin ng lakas para sabihing mahina ka..."

this quote really captured my heart. i dont know why, just it did. when i read this line, all the memories during in the past came in through my mind. yeah, sometimes m tired of being strong and sometimes it came to a point that i wanna give up on something. then i realized that nobody in this world has the power to be intact until you face the trials of your life that you cannot solve unless you admit you're weak to face the reality. sometimes i have this attitude, i feel that i can surpass all of my problems but then when something happens that i didnt expect, thats the time i break down and think that i am weak, i am a failure, i am nothing. Self pity i guess is the right word. but in contratiction to this, sometimes being weak is not that bad because you learn from your mistakes and get up and face again your problem and start again a life that you made. nobody is perfect, thats for sure. so dont be afraid, were not alone in this world who's afraid to fail. i guess we all do.

all my friends knows me that i am a straight forward girl. and sometimes they call me OC because i want everything is polish and accordingly to what i planned. in short i planned all things. but i guess this attitude sometimes put me to frustration, so as time pass by i lessen being such. now, i became more considerate to others feeling. and i learned sometimes things that i didnt plan happened unnoticed. and it was such a great feeling.