realization 101

"minsan pla, kelangan rin ng lakas para sabihing mahina ka..."

this quote really captured my heart. i dont know why, just it did. when i read this line, all the memories during in the past came in through my mind. yeah, sometimes m tired of being strong and sometimes it came to a point that i wanna give up on something. then i realized that nobody in this world has the power to be intact until you face the trials of your life that you cannot solve unless you admit you're weak to face the reality. sometimes i have this attitude, i feel that i can surpass all of my problems but then when something happens that i didnt expect, thats the time i break down and think that i am weak, i am a failure, i am nothing. Self pity i guess is the right word. but in contratiction to this, sometimes being weak is not that bad because you learn from your mistakes and get up and face again your problem and start again a life that you made. nobody is perfect, thats for sure. so dont be afraid, were not alone in this world who's afraid to fail. i guess we all do.

all my friends knows me that i am a straight forward girl. and sometimes they call me OC because i want everything is polish and accordingly to what i planned. in short i planned all things. but i guess this attitude sometimes put me to frustration, so as time pass by i lessen being such. now, i became more considerate to others feeling. and i learned sometimes things that i didnt plan happened unnoticed. and it was such a great feeling.

hayz...

sometimes we tend to do things thats out of our league.

this next paragraph is not connected to the fist sentence so bare with me.. after a long decision making... i decided to go to my frnds party. i really feel not going but then something dragging me that i must go. so in short i went to the party. it was really a daredevil going there alone.. first im not familiar with the place and secondly it was raining. i arrived there in good conditon naman.. as time pass by we were happy partying.. drinking.. eating.. stuff like that.. but then something happened.. its not to me naman but to my friend. so i called her bestfriend good thing he was here.. and he picked us up. during that moment, i longed for my bestfriend if only he was there.. it was a big thing to me na.. but then again m not sure if i still do have a bestfriend or not. you can tell me that m so emotional but, guys,i f you're in my situation you'll gonna long for someone you can lean on during that time.. i dont know if this was just an effect of drinking but hey i know myself, m not yet drunk,m still okay.. compare to all the people in that party i was the one whos really still okay.

m singing in the rain!

hay.. its raining here and we cant go anywhere just stay here inside the dorm and do nothing. we went to greenbelt to attend mass and then eat dinner. i ate fish and fries but then again i didnt finish my food! and that was something new.. hehehehe

i wanna do something but i cant coz i dont know what to do! im thinking if m gonna go to rb and grace's party coz its raining and i dont know if my dad gonna pick me up tomorrow.. so my decision is depending on the weather tomorrow..

its 1.02am and still i am not yet sleepy.. darn! i want to sleep coz its cozy and i love the weather but then again this friigin insomia is killing moi!

holy crap!?

my god! why do some people think they were sooo smart?! wanna know why i end up starting my entry like this? lemme share it...

when i was scanning some of the blogs *i dont wanna mention what site* i was intrigue to this one site and because im bored, i opened her site... damn! she thinks that she is smart! hahahaha.. and as i scan her entries, i really felt that this girl really, fully trust her instinct *which is nice nman* but then again too much of it is not good.. for me dont brag it so much.. let other people say it to you or let them tell you. i know shes pretty but pretty and conceited? geez! give me a break!? i dont think so!? if you think your smart enough... let me tell you this.. believing in yourself is not bad but too much of it, it would pull you down. sometimes we tend to impress everybody but you cant really pleased everyone.. so one piece of advice... dont live in a world which you created for it will gonna put you to somewhere you wouldnt want.


maybe you'll gonna ask me what the heck im talking about... hahahaha.. maybe im just too bored and too happy critisizing someone's life... * hahahaha! i know im mean*


peace y'all!