takot...

hindi ko maintindihan kung ano itong pumapasok sa utak ko ngayon. mali man itong nararamdaman ko wla ako magawa dahil puso na ang nagdidikta.mali man itong gagawin kong pag-iwas pero kelangan para hindi na ako masaktanmali man ang mahulog ang loob sa kanya pero un ang nararamdaman ko ngayono marahil dala lang ito ng pangungulila ko?
lintik na pag ibig kung ano ano at kung sino sino ang napupusuannapapagod na ako sa nararamdaman ko.nagseselos ako na hindi naman dapat.mali! pero nararamdaman ko
minsan naiisip ko na ano bang mali sa akin bakit naghahanap pa rin ako ng ibapanibago, mas bago,sa ugali kong ito natatakot na ako na baka sa huli ako ang iwanan.takot...
mahal ko na ba sya o ito ay isang paghanga lang?

''.)

I'm in a verge of questioning myself why these things happening to me. I'm confused... I’m lost... I'm helpless...


Crap.. right now,I don’t know what will I do.. For the record, just only now I feel like I didn't plan what to do and I didn't expect that these things will happen to me.

Confused... what can say, my mind is battling with my heart. I'm full of foolish thought.

Lost... don't know where to go... where to hide... where to cry... where to shout...

Helpless... can't do anything because right now I'm so weak.. Vulnerable..

im freakin' pissed!!!!! gggrrrrrrrr

the hell with her! if she thinks i will just forget what she have done to me a while ago... she better think twice... coz i will make her life so fucking miserable! she doesnt even know who she's dealing with!? m not a loser like her!!! hell yeah! crap! if she thinks her pa-innocent look will decieve me.. fuck her! im not dumb like her!


let see..if she can stand what im gonna do to her... i bet she'll gonna cry so hard that she'll even call her parents to help her to pull her up! bullshit! bobo tlga!!!! ggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....

for my best and to his family

When people ask for a meaning of life, they are asking for life's purpose, justification, or goal — not a "meaning" in the sense in which words have meaning. life can't be defined because its not a thing...

best... my condolences to you and to your family... if only i can ease the pain you're having right now... i will do my best to take it away from you... your tatay is happy na right now there beside our god.. and for sure he will be guiding you where ever you are... if only we can turn back time di ba... kya lng he's purpose here on earth is done and i know he's glad that he had a grandson like you.. just best, your life doesnt end there... you must go on. and im sure your tatay also want you to pursue what you have started..

to lara

tnx lara for the poll! heehee..

hay.. back to skul again.. nywayz my 1st day *yesterday* was great but today... my gosh.. borrriinnngggggggg.........i was doing something... hmmm.. texting... not listening! hahaha

i miss THE OC

as i scanned my myspace.. at my cousin's page i saw seth and summer's pic! oh.. they're such a lovely couple. so sweet! teehee.. and really really missed watching THE OC. they're in there 3rd season already...

i wish HE was here... *you know who's m talking to* hayz..

my birthday bash..

i had a blast birthday! teehee.. 3 days celebration.. well, m not making pa-angas but what can i do.. i have to celebrate it on different days and with different people. hahahaha...
date: 24 going to 25
anyway, early in the morning 2am.. i treat my officemates.. we bought foods from watering hole in shangri-la then we just brought it in the office.. coz we still have lotsa deadline. but we had fun eating.. we're like scavanger coz we really were starving to death. so as usual i went home around 2 in the afternoon.. the entire afternoon of my birthday i was sleeping... and i wanted to cry coz it was raining so hard and all i can do was to cancel my celebration that night.. but thanks to my friend bon. we had dinner in greenbelt 3, and after our dinner we watched a movie.. the lady in the water. i was so blessed. i celebrated my bday with bon. then day 26... i provided mirienda for my officemates. hahahaha! i was really praying sooo hard that hope it wouldnt rain.. so i can celebrate my birthday with my friends. so i told my friends rain or shine we have to celebrate my birthday! so we did..
location: oj's eastwood & ipanema
we took lotsa pictures there.. im gonna upload it within this week or so.. thanks guys to all who went there.. im really really happy you celebrated it with me! then we went to ipanema... we danced there like there was no tomorrow.. hahaha.. we're only the people who were dancing at the flatform! crazy! but we liked it that way.
to all who had and still greeting me.. m very very overwhelmed that you remembered my day..

my first sueldo..

hahahaha! can you believe it? m actually earning money right now? gee... yeah yeah.. m gonna put it to the bank first or my friend told me that i have to give my first salary to my parents.. well, i might do that! hahahaha.. m not that eager nmn to spend it to all to myself. kinda m not in a good mood ryt now, this morning, i didnt feel like talking... so for a long time, m just staring at nothing. booger! i hate what happened! they actually thought i have a problem... prolly yes, but i dont wanna share it to them.. hahahaha.. secret!

last night i spill out all my hard feelings... *word vommit* thank god my friends were there to listen to my stories.

i hate that feeling that someone's stepping on you because of insecurities... or getting all the attention of the people around you. and most specially, pinching your friend so that she can get the attention she wanna get from your frnd. its like she wants to steal your friend from you.
dunno.. m i bad to think that way?

hay... that was the reason why i was in a silent mode this morning.. m irritated... i dont wanna see her face... i wanna pull her hair!!!!

bitter

yeah,, monday morning, im bitter. dont ask why just i realized now that even your friend can make you get a high temper. grrrr... she think she is really smart!? damn! she also think she can do it all by herself! lets see... stupid...

life's simple pleasures

Instructions:Name ten(10) of life's simple pleasures that you like the most, then pick ten(10) people to do the same. Try to be original and creative and not to use things that someone else has already used.
scent of the newly cut grass - I cant explain why but one thing for sure: I enjoy smelling it. Teehee..

2. movies - watching movie is my escape to all my frustrations in life. I'm addicted to it.

3. shopping! - hahahaha! It's a girl thing! No further explanation. teehee

4. sipping coffee - whenever, wherever I am, I want to take some sip of a cold or hot coffee. I like the calming aroma it brings inside me.

5. going to a quite place - this one makes me soooo calm.. I think we all need some quite environment to reflect especially right now that all we tend to do is to swallow all the noise pollution here on earth. Let us have a cleansing time so that we uplift our spirit and ourselves.

6. sunrise - the lilac sky, with bluish clouds and the smile of the air… wow.. start of a new day. I like it because after the worries of yesterday, there are the hopes of tomorrow.

7. sunset - reddish, fire orange and glowing red color it brings, now the king sun goes down leaving the entire sky with its wonderful colors. Such a lovely scenario especially if you’re at the beach or near the water because of its reflection at the water.

8. honesty - “honesty is such a lonely word, everybody's so untrue”
its like trust if you’re not honest how can one relationship will survive. It’s like the saying: its take two to tango. So if you like your relationship to last, this is the ingredients: love, trust, communication, understanding, time and honesty.

9. laugh - laughter is a medicine to a lonely heart. Yeah definitely! Sometimes you really need a good laugh to make your life more beautiful.

10. last but not the least hope - its makes my life go around. I'm full of hopes and dreams because its free! And that's the best thing about it.

*This is from bebekaye… sheesh! Hahahaha..


Acceptance is not the same thing as resignation. You won't lose if you give in now

picture tale

while you are sleeping..






captured moments with friends flashes back













even though its blurry










the smile in your friends faces will lighten up your day









while you reminisce that day










you enjoy flipping the pages of your life with friends who stick with you













whatever faces the camera captured










in a single second it gives you back the smile you longs











the memories that molds you as what you are right now












the places you've been to with your friends







smiling while the camera flashes you with its light








no matter where you are









no matter what pose you poses







whatever things you had in your hands









the memories will still be there inside your heart







even though you are afraid of something










the smile at your friends face will take away your fright









when sunset comes









while you stroll at the beach








celebrating your friend's birthday, you, being part of her life






as the moon showed up in the sky..
still you are with your friends..










building a bon fire that will lighten up the night...

old soul

You Are an Old Soul

You are an experienced soul who appreciates tradition.Mellow and wise, you like to be with others but also to be alone.Down to earth, you are sensible and impatient.A creature of habit, it takes you a while to warm up to new people. You hate injustice, and you're very protective of family and friendsA bit demanding, you expect proper behavior from others.Extremely independent you don't mind living or being alone.But when you find love, you tend to want marriage right away. Souls you are most compatible with: Warrior Soul and Visionary Soul

tribute to my friend... m gonna miss you

After a long trip I realized the value of a friend. My friend is going to Italy this coming 15 and she's staying there for good. As I close my eyes I didn't recognize the tears falling from my eyes. Maybe and for sure I will miss her. She became part of my life. She taught me how to be me and be independent on my own way. I consider her as my big sister. Shared memories will be always treasure here in my heart. The laughters and trials we parted molded me as a strong person. I will miss our genuine talks and our food hopping when we are hungry. Our room will be dull and quite when she leaves because she always makes us smile especially when we feel down. I will keep all the memories we have shared coz it couldn't be bought by any thing. It's a special gift that nobody can take away from us. To you… you are one of the best gift that god has given me. I will hold on to our words that wherever we are we will still be friends and we still communicate no matter what happens.

6.6.06

Its devil's day today! Teehee.. I know im such an insane to say that. Anyhow, oh my god.. So many things happened to me this day. Hahaha maybe the force of the devil had come upon me! Teehee.

Anyways, I watched a movie with my uncle, untie, bro and cuz. And guess what? I remembered my ex because of that movie. Hahahahaha funny I know. But really, I was petrified when I heard that the guy was calling his girl "kikay". It's kinda odd watching a movie using "code names?" or using names to call his/her especial someone and in my case they used our "tawagan" back then. It was cool 'coz "kikay and kiko" was rare "tawagan" and I thought back then that we're the only couple who has that tawagan. Teehee. Of course the pains and happiness of our relationship came back while I was watching the movie… but I told myself… time to let go and to set myself free from that.. duh! Its been centuries since we broke up! Teehee.. And we have our own lives now. So why not move on? Right? teehee.. I just wanna share a part of my life with you.

Another mistake I made this day… I greeted my best friend a happy bday today coz I taught it was his bday.. Then I realized I was wrong! Booger! Teehee.. I laughed at myself for a foolish mistake.

One more thing, I saw my prof and hell yah! God knows how I felt when I saw him! I wanna leave the resto as fast as I can! teehee

Well that was my devil’s day.. and I think that I spent it with the blessings of all the failures in my life! bwahahahahaha

emote

nobody is perfect... that was my realization this day...as i continue to watch the PBB celebrity edition, (fyi: i bought it! teehee) i salute zanjoe for being such a nice guy and he really respect bianca 'coz he knew from the start what he felt for her is really hard to defend.. so he make the most out of it while they're inside Big Bro. house.

repress feelings...
inhibiting yourself from what you want to do...
holding back 'coz someone might get hurt...
keeping inside what you feel...
selfish decision...
but that is one of the best way to keep you sane...
to keep you from harming someone else's feelings...
keeping you to believe that somehow you felt love...
that somehow you showed love...
somehow someone noticed your existence...
noticed you were there...
waiting to be loved...

faces...

yesterday i saw one great site (courtesy of bebemahellaine). i was so amazed because it will generate who are the artists who have resemblance to you! isnt that cool? teeheee
here are some of my friends and their "artist" look-a-like:

let me start from myselfie...

abby: 74% zhang ziyi, 70% namie amuro, 68% rudolph valentino,67% lee young-ae, 63% natalie portman, 61% kirsten dunst, 59% katie holmes

marek: ben harper53%, tim montgomery51%, cindy crawford47% (galing mei feminine side ka pla) peace muymuy

jerica: sammi cheng64, rachel weisz62, jessica alba58 (awww.. idol ko to.. jessica alba)

best carlo: mustafa sandal62, anthony hopkins61, kevin spacey61, jlo 54 (nak ng teteng best! jlo oh kamukha mo daw..)

apo- kirsten dunst, tara reid57, michelle wie51 (nux apo ha...)

kaye: katie holmes63, bernadette soubirous62, shania twain50, maggie cheung49 (woah, hanap ka na din bebekaye ng tom cruise)

ate pie: sammi cheng72, hikaru utada 67, michelle yeoh 64, choi ji-woo62 (wow ate pie puro chinese!)

lian: shannen doherty68, francoise hardy66, jessica alba63, christina ricci59

dapi: geri halliwell64, veronica ferres49, denise richards48, liv tyler47 (naku apo ko din, puro hollywood nmn ung syo)

tinini: ashley olsen71, jennifer garner68, geri halliwell64, janie tienphosuwan, 63jamie lyyn spears (olsen.. wow nmn.. nahirapan ako dun mgspell ng surname nya ung si janie)

well.. isnt that great..

sonnet

my first sonnet... january 29,2001

the music of the heart might fade away
longing for the sun to give back the light
this past days my heart is aching at night
thinking, when was the last time i feel okay
loving you is hard to find along the way
i dont give up because you're at my sight
wishing someday my heart will fly like a kite
so you would notice that i'm here to stay

maybe this is wrong to say i love you
but for sure i know what i'm doing here
i know deep inside of me it is true
that you like my voice for you to hear
so promise me, you wont make me feel blue

may all of this things may come true

i made this sonnet when i was still in high school yrs.. hahahaha

pity....

nobody knows how i feel
no one dare to ask me how do i cope with things
no one lend their hands to me for me to stand up
i pity myself for thinking like this

sometimes i ask myself if i am really strong
or i just think that im strong but the truth is im weak
my head is battling with my heart
both of them is starting to kill

dont try to explain'coz im getting used of it
being ditch whenever i invites you
i think my heart is strarting to be numb
on everything..

confused...

It’s really painful to be rejected by someone youlove… but the saddest part is when he alsochooses to give up the friendship (you’ve bothbuilt for a long time) to make things easier anduncomplicated… without any regret of throwing arelationship that has been fun yet serious…discrete yet sweet… young yet mature… weakyet strong… unofficial yet heartening… imperfectyet ideal…
It’s like hitting two birds with one stone… Thetwo most important things a girl is obsessed withare love and friendship, which can not be boughtby money…
After sharing happy, sad, scared, furious, angry,curious, silly, overwhelming thoughts andemotions… After showing the real you whenyou’re together… After admitting that there was/is attraction or fascination… After trying toescape from problems, probing, interference,burden and mischief together by just knowing youhave each other… After being so comfortable thatat some point you both felt that the world onlyevolves on the two of you… After exchangingsweet and promising words… After being openwith what you think was wrong but still acceptseach other… After being patient about oneanother’s flaws and being understanding whenyou knew he/she needed it… After working it outlittle by little even if it is already drudging for theboth of you… After treating each other as acompanion, buddy, friend, partner, guardian,confidant, counselor, support system andsignificant other…
He decides to let go and move on as if nothingspecial had happened… He takes back all thethings he said to you because suddenly herealizes that it was insincere, superficial andmeaningless… He leaves you hanging withquestions he can only answer… He turns his backon you without considering you’re being leftalone… He avoids you because he doesn’t wantto face reality and he’s scared of telling thetruth… He expects that you will just forget thewhole thing… He denies the extraordinaryfriendship you had and makes fun of the situationin front of your common friends as if it was a joketaken from the Internet…
Unfair, vague, misleading, disbelief, betrayed,untrue, confusing, pretended, selfish, hurtful,insulting, impertinent are the words in my mind…I don’t know how this will end and I’m still willingto wait whether he will let all of this come intoreality or everything will fall into place the way Ibelieved it would (which I doubt anyway)… I justwant to hear it from him as clear as a crystal andcut a strand of hope that still remains in mewhich I hold on to all this time… :c

rain drops...

raining...
pours...
nonstop drifting on the roof...
sipping coffee...
thinking of you
in this time where all the people reflects and longs
i look above...
raindrops touches my face...
i felt i was touch by an angel through the water
the thoughts of you makes my heart melt...

aroma of the tea...
lingers in my head like when you put perfume in your body
i watch you leave..
leaving me all the memories...
touching my soul...
kissing you...
hugging me...
loving you...
your gift to me forever...

my first lomi..

woah! i know its weird that a im not used to eat such food as lomi.
its a new dish for me.
let me tell you what happened and what i felt when i was about to eat that food
*the aroma of that food still linger in my nose*

my stomach is hurting! i am hungry..
knock.. my uncle brought some food and gave it to me
reluctantly... my mom gave it to me..
when i saw the food... ewww!
slimy... sticky... its like a phlem!!
my mom taught me how to eat it... i must put some soy sauce.. as if i care...
then put some lemon... i did it...
my mouth is refusing to eat it.. but my mind is telling me to try it...
another struggle between my mind and mouth..
holding my nose and breath... spoon of lomi here it comes...
i was on the verge of barfing... the feeling was like as if i was in fear factor...
vioala! the lomi was inside my mouth... starting to touch my tongue...
then realized that it was not that bad food at all...
but then again... i think it will be my first and last lomi..
no more another one..
unbelievable.. i ate such food as lomi..

i am choosy in terms of food im gonna eat... gulp..
and picky in terms of the place i am gonna eat my food... whew..
that's me.. im sensitive and miticolosa to the food i am going to swallow...
if its not nice in my eyes and in my nose..
rather throw it or dont even show it to me...
but if you insist... i might try it!

sakit..

ito na siguro ang isa sa pinakamasakit na lagi nangyayari sa akin.. ito ay ang masaktan.. bakit kasi nasasaktan ang isang tao? bakit hindi na lang puro ligaya ang maramdaman natin.. bakit kelangan pa nating maghirap.

sa isang tao na nagmamahal ng patago, mahiraP ito lalo na kung kilala mo o kaibigan mo ang minamahal mo ng patago. minsan gusto mo isigaw na mahal mo sya pero hindi mo magawa.. bakit... kasi away mo masira ang maganda nyong relasyon bilang magkaibigan.. ang sabihin mo takot ka lng.. takot kang maitaboy!

alin ang mas masakit.. ung magmahal ka ng patago.. o ung makita mo ang ex mo na masaya sa bago nyang gf.. tpos hindi mo aminin sa sarili mo na may pagmamahal ka pa sa ex mo.. dahil ang sabi ng utak mo na hindi mo na sya mahal kya nga hindi na kyo ngayon tpos sabi naman ng puso mo na mahal mo pa sya hanggang ngayon...

kung minamalas malas ka pa naman di ba ung bagong gf ng ex mo eh friend mo pa.. kamusta naman yun? sige gawin pa natin komplikado ang situwasyon...

yan ang ilan sa mga nararamdaman natin kapag tao ay natatanga sa pag ibig... tanga na nga ginagawa pa tayong tanga...

my apo... jomai

Hold a friend’s hand through times of trial, Let her find love through a hug and a smile; But also know when it is time to let go… For each and every one of us must learn to grow…Sharon Heilbrunn

I sit balanced on the edge of my bed, faint smile drifting across my face, as I sort throughall my old photographs. I dig down into all the old memories. I hold each memory briefly in my hands before dropping in onto the pile in my lap and searching for the next happy moment to remember. As I continue to remember the memories, I saw one picture that captured my heart. It was my picture with jomai. When I first met jomai, she instantly became my friend. We enjoyed the same things, laughed at the same joke. It seemed like we had found each other at the right time. Both of us had been in different groups of friends.
College started and we were not in the same school. It seemed as if were being put to a test. We both made new friends. Jomai started to hang out with a new group of people.
Many trials came to our friendship but still we’re standing and our friendship is still there.
Jomai… one of my treasured friends that help me to rise when I was there in the ground. She completes the entire me. She will be always here in my heart..
I still missed her. We had shared incredible years together.. Years I will never forget. Years I don’t want to forget.

great days of my life

Last week (dated 20-22) I was in makati to get my grad pic. Anyhow, I had fun. Specially when we went to bay walk with james. Before that, me and kim watched a movie. And it sucks! I mean the movie suck. But even though it sucks, I liked the guy there. And that’s it. Then I invited kim to drink, ‘cause I know when we go back to our place we wouldn’t do anything. Then we went to W Grill. I phoned celine to inform them that we will be chillin’ out. Then she told me that they will catch up. So there, kinda fun but whoa when james arrived darn! That was the time we had a real fun. He wanted to change venue so do we. We went to Bay walk. We’re kinda resto hopping and bar hopping. Hahahaha. Such a sweet guy. And take note, he’s from batangas also and we came from same school, but he’s kinda older than me..way older! Hahahahaha (peace man) well, some details bout him must be kept as secret ‘cause nobody knows ‘bout it. Hahahaha. (kinda freakin out huh) we went to malate (duh! Its near lng kaya) and supposedly we would go to a GAY bar but one of our friend freeze! He has a phobia going to a gay bar or he is hust afraid of gays! Hahaha (peace man) but that’s alright ‘cause the fun doesn’t end there. We wet back again to bay walk. Drink wine and listen to the acoustic playin.. after that we went to one of the bar in libis. Hahahaha.. we arrived home around
5 am

. So there, that was my life when I am in manila, nonstop drinking! Hahahaha. I am guilty of that, but at the end I am always the baby sitter of my friends. I guess you know what I mean.




Yesterday as I scan my laptop, I found the PM of my friends n IRC. I read the PM of bebejai, and then I also read the messages of bebejammy then our heart to heart talks of daddy edsel and mommy ellaine. my beloved apo who's always there to listen to my nonsense stories. Stories of bebekaye about her lovelife and life. I really missed that time that we were really have the time to update each other what’s happening to our lives. I know time flies really fast, but I wanna bring back the times that we are not yet that busy about life and not busy to nonsense business of this world. I wanna rewind the days where we’re still young and no worries of tomorrow.

good bye...

Four years of late night sleeps. Four years of cramming. Four years of rendering. Four years of laughters. Four years of tears. Four years of struggles. Four years of triumph and four years of treasuring. Who would think that it has been already over? That we have to face new challenges waiting for us on the real world, scary but that’s reality. Having perseverance to pursue my dreams of being an Interior designer and being enrolled to one of the most prestigious schools in Manila, Assumption taught me to be selfless and to develop my talents and skills. To reach my hands to those who need my help, to impart what I know to my fellow men. Assumption has shown me the grace of believing in myself and reaches my potentials as a woman.
Now my dreams is at my hand, I won’t let my school be down, I will lived by the lessons I have learned as I continue my journey in this life. Choosing the right path is not a measurement of intelligence but of characters and values in which Assumption has instilled in me for the fulfilling four years I had with my Assumption Education.

bum! hehehehe

as i looked back, one thing i realized: when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.. the alchemist

during this time last year, i was in texas, having my vacation. well now i realize how hot here in the pi by this month. (feeling lagi wala d2 sa pinas eh) hahahaha..

maybe you'll ask me why i didnt go back there this summer... one reason... i wanna try new things naman.. maybe new continent naman! hahahaha (darn yabang!)

but honestly, i wanna live on my own by this time. i wanna see some improvements n myself. i wanna prove that even though i am a daddy's girl, i can stand on my own feet and prove that i can succeed.

new layout

hahahaha... new again.. i know, im trying to retrieve my xanga web page but i cant open it.. darn! hay...

hide and seek

"Hide And Seek"

Where are we? What the hell is going on?
The dust has only just begun to fall,
Crop circles in the carpet, sinking, feeling.
Spin me round again and rub my eyes.
This can't be happening.
When busy streets a mess with people
would stop to hold their heads heavy.

Hide and seek.
Trains and sewing machines.
All those years they were here first.

Oily marks appear on walls
Where pleasure moments hung before.
The takeover, the sweeping insensitivity of this
still life.

Hide and seek.
Trains and sewing machines. (Oh, you won't catch me around here)
Blood and tears,
They were here first.

Mmm, what you say?
Mm, that you only meant well? Well, of course you did.
Mmm, what you say?
Mm, that it's all for the best? Ah off course it is.
Mmm, what you say?
Mm, that it's just what we need? And you decided this.
Mmm what you say?
What did she say?

Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth.
Mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut-outs.
Speak no feeling, no I dont believe you.
You don't care a bit. You don't care a bit.

Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth.
Mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut-outs.
Speak no feeling, no I don't believe you.
You don't care a bit. You don't care a bit.

You don't care a bit.
You don't care a bit.
You don't care a bit.
You don't care a bit.
You don't care a bit.

i really loved this song.. i first heard it in my friends mp3 and i loved it since then. then i heard it again to one episode of OC! omg.. im really addicted right now to OC. i like it better than laguna beach. yeah, i also watch laguna beach,sorry for being bias but i really love OC. awww... i miss ryan! hahahahaha..

hurting inside

i was hurt. i feel im alone right now. as i scan my friendster account i saw something really stab me at my heart. i dont know if im just being so narrow minded but still it heat me like a lightning. i lost everything.. hope i can still stand and pull myself up... i dont know who's my home right now....

fate...

"Fate will bring together those a thousand miles apart; without fate, they will miss each other though they come face to face."

darn.. somewhat this quote captured my heart. yeah almost all of us experience this stuff but how would we face this fact if sometimes we intend to give up? sad reality. so that means if we miss someone we lack of fate? is fate is also what we called destiny or not?