confused...

It’s really painful to be rejected by someone youlove… but the saddest part is when he alsochooses to give up the friendship (you’ve bothbuilt for a long time) to make things easier anduncomplicated… without any regret of throwing arelationship that has been fun yet serious…discrete yet sweet… young yet mature… weakyet strong… unofficial yet heartening… imperfectyet ideal…
It’s like hitting two birds with one stone… Thetwo most important things a girl is obsessed withare love and friendship, which can not be boughtby money…
After sharing happy, sad, scared, furious, angry,curious, silly, overwhelming thoughts andemotions… After showing the real you whenyou’re together… After admitting that there was/is attraction or fascination… After trying toescape from problems, probing, interference,burden and mischief together by just knowing youhave each other… After being so comfortable thatat some point you both felt that the world onlyevolves on the two of you… After exchangingsweet and promising words… After being openwith what you think was wrong but still acceptseach other… After being patient about oneanother’s flaws and being understanding whenyou knew he/she needed it… After working it outlittle by little even if it is already drudging for theboth of you… After treating each other as acompanion, buddy, friend, partner, guardian,confidant, counselor, support system andsignificant other…
He decides to let go and move on as if nothingspecial had happened… He takes back all thethings he said to you because suddenly herealizes that it was insincere, superficial andmeaningless… He leaves you hanging withquestions he can only answer… He turns his backon you without considering you’re being leftalone… He avoids you because he doesn’t wantto face reality and he’s scared of telling thetruth… He expects that you will just forget thewhole thing… He denies the extraordinaryfriendship you had and makes fun of the situationin front of your common friends as if it was a joketaken from the Internet…
Unfair, vague, misleading, disbelief, betrayed,untrue, confusing, pretended, selfish, hurtful,insulting, impertinent are the words in my mind…I don’t know how this will end and I’m still willingto wait whether he will let all of this come intoreality or everything will fall into place the way Ibelieved it would (which I doubt anyway)… I justwant to hear it from him as clear as a crystal andcut a strand of hope that still remains in mewhich I hold on to all this time… :c